Once again 

So here you are, once again, Tears streaming down your face, Shaking and fearing something you don’t even know of yet You’re sat on the toilet floor hugging your knees struggling to breathe, And for those 10 minutes it all feels so painful Like time has frozen and you are still thirteen  At school with…

Shadow Definition

And not so long ago, I was a shadow, full on the inside, within myself yet I hid my definition behind the sun’s ray. It made me doubt every thought, every word, the light shining on me made me want to run feeling awkward and unsure, the heat gave me red cheeks and sweaty palms….

Extinguished

I set myself on fire wanted to burn myself to ashes but you wouldn’t let me. You came in trying to extinguish my flames first water, next foam then gas but nothing was quite enough. Nothing could stop the burning emptiness inside, a hollow chest, a heart that was only beating. I yearned to feel…

Deadweight

Deadweight.When my mind takes the strength from my body, hold me Wrap yourself around me so tightly that some of your strength may transpire. Carry my deadweight just until I am strong again. I’ll try not to let it take too long, just wait with me. Whisper to me, shout to me, sing to me….

Tsunami 

It washes over me like a tidal wave, I rarely see it coming, suddenly sucked in to the swirls, the current is carrying me, it’s journey and destination both a wreckage, taking control of my mind, every thought an irrationality, relinquishing to a whirlpool, my muscles surrender to the riptide, their strength diminishes beyond my…

Success!

This week I have conquered one of my biggest fears and it has been one hell of a week with three job interviews as well as starting a new job and balancing my current jobs. I am pretty proud of myself for this week and that is not something that I say often so it…